I'm at the stage where I'm vulnerable to the smallest things, and this has the potential to seriously destroy me. I feel like Julie is drifting away, and I'm scared. I've barely spoken to her this morning, and I waited for her to come, but she didn't, and she didn't come yesterday either. I don't feel like asking her why she's not doing this, and if I don't go out of my way to ask... I don't even think she would care. I'm a mess at the moment, and the worse part of it all is that I had a horrible nightmare about me losing her. I'm seriously hoping that wasn't foreshadowing, hopefully it was just a dream. But I think I just need to give her space, which is something I'm reluctant to do because there's nothing I enjoy more than her company.
I'm already off to a bad start, and we're not even 5 minutes into the school day.
Additionally, I have no one to talk to, which is just making this entire ordeal worse. I'm overreacting, I know I am. But I'm completely vulnerable. My guard is completely open and if something happens, I'll be crushed.
Maybe lunch will be different, but for now, I just want to not be like this. I just don't.
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