I've had,

the,

worst,

day,

ever.

Julie won't talk to me, all because of a stupid reason. I'm dying. I've cried my heart out. I haven't cried since my grandmother passed nearly 2 years ago. My eyes hurt. My heart is beating at an abnormally fast pace. I'm breathing heavily. I haven't laughed since Julie told me she didn't want to talk to me.

She won't accept my apologies. I'm scared. Super, super scared.

It's too early for a stupid tussle to destroy me like this. It's way too early.

-sigh-

I just hope I can sleep without crying.

... I just hope I can sleep at all.

*EDIT* Novice States in April '07 was the only time between my grandmother's passing and Tuesday that I cried.